It's hard to explain how alone I feel. I don't want to go on a poor me rant. I want to respect all the people in my life. Somehow I feel spun back to my late teens and early twenties feeling as though I had no voice and no right to use it. I just feel very alone and need to put that somewhere. Just as I started writing this, Mari’s Wedding came on the speakers and it felt like the loneliness settled into new little corners. I figured if I don't post I've written here, no one will read it, but I can still feel like I have a voice.

I thought I'd made so much progress. It’s hard to be back here.